Friday, August 31, 2012

Blue Moon

I'm tired and the weather is weird, my barometer is off. You go through life groping. Sometimes you grab something nice. Sometimes you don't. Sometimes it's honeysuckle and sometimes you choke back the bile while you try not to cry in front of people who don't understand.

My daughter asks me sometimes why I'm sad. Then I remember I need to put the happy mask back on. I can't explain to her and I hope to god she never figures it out for herself. I am not always sad. But sometimes life is a punch in the gut. Sometimes people are just so plain ugly that you're ashamed you are the same species. I want to be a moth. I want to be drawn to something. I'm tired of fluttering aimlessly.

All this emo shit makes me want to smack myself. You can want to smack me, too. It's just one of those days. Must be the blue moon.

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  1. Sorry you are having a blue moon day... I think that I am a bit strange because when I realized that today was a blue moon, I wanted to laugh and jump up and down. Whoopee... I like moons. ;-)

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  2. Thanks. The moon will cheer me up. I like moons, too. Last night's was AWESOME.

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  3. I have a tendency to react in a pollyanna-ish way, or to be funny and sing "Always look on the bright side of life" etc... but ya know, some days are just full of woe. Some days are crappy. Some days actually are shit.

    So for now I'll just say: I hear you, my friend. How about a cookie before you go write a story? ;)) xo

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    1. Some days are shitty, but shitty days can be navigated when you have good friends. :)

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  4. P.S. I think the Blue Moon means the end of the crappy days and tomorrow, all will be new and shiny and kind. :))

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    1. Thanks Jo! Don't have any cookies, but my best friend and musical partner for the last 20 years is coming to meet his goddaughter (the second one). I go to the airport soon. I'm feeling good. And I can't wait to see the blue moon (and get the song out of my head).

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  5. Today was Neil Armstrong's memorial service. Kind of fitting. But yeah, some days you just gotta ride out and hope you don't drop over the edge until the next good day comes along. Feeling it too, big time.

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    1. I had no idea...I mean, I planned that! Ride, yup, that's what we'll do. :)

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