Friday, February 26, 2021
Friday, February 19, 2021
The notes are sticky, man. They're hanging from the ceiling: fat, purple and swollen. They're gonna drop on your head, drown you. You're going to have to swim for it, and you might beg it to stop, but thin man gonna keep blowin' that horn. Motherfuckers are gonna keep slamming those drumsticks. That fat man with the big ol' bass is gonna rewire your shit, retune your heartbeat. Ain't nothing to do but drink it in, keep swallowing so you don't drown.
Shit gets hot all over town.
That guitar run went up your spine and played it like a xylophone, son. Sounds like plastic, wasted misery. Sounds like Chicago on a summer night, screams over those flat punches. Get it in the gut; close your eyes so it can't take you over, Buttercup.
Light one up and lean out over the fire escape, shit's just turning up.
It don't matter if you can understand the words, man, you get the gist. You gotta chew on it like gristle, get the juices out of it. Let 'em run down your throat while the fast women run up and down the dancefloor, collecting heartache.
It's a long night, and you ain't got but one heart to break.
So, let 'em bang the drum, the beat, the summer heat. Let the politicians lie and the poor folks suffer. Let folks freeze solid and call it American Perseverance.
America is going cheap. It's on clearance.
Friday, February 12, 2021
The cliff face is steep, sheer. The drop will be deadly; you
know this, but in this knowing you learn things about yourself that you would
rather not know. You learn about fear and anguish. You learn about
self-reprisal. You learn that your bluffs are sometimes just bluffs, and that
your stubborn streak could kill you.
The smart play is to turn around. Clearly. There is nothing to prove here except to the hikers who will find your body at the bottom. Figure you slipped. They won’t understand that you were proving something to yourself. They won’t see that it mattered.
So, it won’t matter.
You don’t realize as you hang onto the rocks that you will
still be reliving this moment far in the future. 25 years later, and you still
wonder if you could have made it to the bottom. And, if you had, what would it
have meant. Doesn’t matter. You climbed up, went home, got drunk. Played some
The cliff is still there. You will never find it. But maybe,
someday, it will make sense. Maybe someday you will forgive yourself for being
so lost that you couldn’t make a decision. Couldn’t do right by yourself. You
didn’t figure out a way to die, so you had to figure out a way to live.
Sometimes, it’s a long walk out of the woods.
You’re in the eye of the storm, but don’t get comfortable.
Outside the eye, everything is chaos. You can’t feel safe, no rest. You can’t
relax because those tropical winds will suck you right the hell of that
momentary calm. Send you reeling. Farmhouses flying by and Aunty Em, Aunty Em,
was that a little black dog?
See, that Dog got sucked right out to sea. It’s drowning
now. Bermuda triangle.
People are going to swirl by you and it’s tempting to reach out and touch them, grab them, pull them in towards you where everything is peaceful. Quiet. Careful, they might also pull you into the maelstrom. And maybe they’re having fun out there.
Just because you like peace and quiet doesn’t
mean it’s good for everybody.
This is last time you will ever feel at ease if you don’t
find a way to stabilize yourself. Winds blow and the sky will get dark. There will
be thunder and lightning. Still, the eye is one of your own making. You just
have to make it. One man’s calm is another man’s storm.