You put your hand through the glass and the skin parts and the blood comes...it's like a magic trick. Through the thickness in your eyes, you stare at it, amazed. The cause and effect are so swift and narrow. There is solace there. No unexpected consequences. If only the rest of your life would behave in the same way.
The blood, the thinness of the blood, disturbs the feeling. It is too pink, and it runs too fast. It's like your blood is missing some crucial component. Some life force. Like you're running on unleaded gas.
In the morning, none of it will make any sense. You'll judge yourself and your lack of restraint. You'll accuse yourself of grand delusions. You will feel thin and sickly like your blood. You might even still taste it, along with the stale smoke and the recriminations....the frantic search for recollection.
You'll do it again. That's the stupidest part of the whole thing. You can't wait to do it again. You have to because the alternative is even worse.
But dog hair always tastes awful.