Friday, September 12, 2025

2 Minutes. Go!

What are you gonna do when the narrative betrays you? It can happen to writers, but we can rule with an iron fist in our kingdoms constructed of words. What about the narratives you use to explain life? What about the ones you didn't write? What about the narratives that tell your history? What about the weaponized narratives the rich use to make us hate each other?

What happens when you lose control of societal narratives? People suffer. People die. People let hate take them over.

Its easy to blame social media, but I blame humanity. We have always been like this. We, the majority, have always tried to live happily among the sociopaths who only crave power. They have always existed, and they often get what they want. 

Suffering follows, generally.

It's not that things used to be better, it's just that you used to be less informed. Used to be, it took "news" months to travel the world and, still, not everyone would hear it. Now we have our own personally-tailored 24 hour news cycles in our pockets. They tell us just what we want to hear. 

Narratives are tricky. I don't know a lot about a lot of things, but I know about stories. They are hard to change once you've written them, so it is always wise to tread carefully. Go slow. Take your time.

Me? I'm running from narratives grounded in reality. I'm about to build a fort out of books and live in it forever. 

No soliciting, no visitors.

 


Friday, September 5, 2025

2 Minutes. Go!

The phone rang. That was all that happened. Nothing crazy. Nothing to get upset about. But Tony was upset. Maybe that wasn't fair, but it also didn't stop him from ripping the phone out of the wall and smashing it. 

After that, it was real quiet.

He didn't like surprises. That was part of it. He also didn't like the sound of the ring. When he was expecting a call, he would stand right beside the phone and grab it before the ringing started. This call was a surprise, so that was one thing. 

Tony was also having a particularly bad morning. He'd killed a man that somehow refused to stay dead. It didn't make sense. He'd put seven bullets into the man, but the word was people kept seeing him on the street. Only in flashes, like he was some kind of fucking ghost. 

So, it was a bad morning. 

It would be a bad afternoon, too. This whole hit had shaken him up, even if he didn't want to admit it. There was something about the guy. He never seemed scared. He didn't act like scared people act. Tony was used to the behavior of those about to die. 

He didn't recognize it in the man. 

He crossed the office, stepping on broken pieces of phone. He huffed and his face was red. He should have been paying attention, because suddenly there was cold metal on the back of his skull. 

"Tony, I'm just returning the favor, man. No hard feelings."

Tony was going to tell Johnny to go fuck himself, but the bullet entering his brain took the words away. 

The gunman looked down and smiled. Then, he put four shots into the man's chest and one more to the side of his head. Tony was soup, now, but it had to be done. 

Johnny knew from experience...how easy it could be to come back from the dead.

Friday, August 29, 2025

2 Minutes. Go!

You put the seed in the ground to grow, you nurture it, but it can still be erased in seconds by thrashing mower blades. Doesn't matter if the sprout is well-watered. Doesn't matter if you put compost in the soil. The mower doesn't give a shit about compost. The mower is like an AR-15...it erases all good intentions.

You put your kids in school because you want them to learn. You want them to learn to be around other people. Some of them, you just can't reach. Then you have what we have come to know as a routine: kids die, politicians lie - thoughts and prayers never put anyone's intestines back in their stomach.

You can plant your kids in deep soil, coddle them in kindergarten and teach them to love one another, but you have to hope that one of those kids doesn't live in a house with a bunch of lawnmowers. They are sponges. They'll cut you down at the stalk, and you will be a memory.

Grow your kids at home? Maybe. Maybe they need to be around other people. Maybe learning to deal with society is the most important part?

You just got to hope that no one perforates your kids with lethal projectiles while they are trying to learn. Teach them to be afraid, always ready - to never let their guard down - anxiety IS survival. Think of it as bug spray...

You gotta keep the pests away.

Friday, August 22, 2025

2 Minutes. Go!

    Jorge never fished using a net. He had never done it, but he had seen it done many times. When he was young, he watched neighbors pull nets full of a variety of fish while his father and grandfather would fish all day with their rods to get enough fish to eat and trade. They were good fishermen, but a net is the best fisherman of all. 
     Jorge had asked his father about it once. His father had chuckled and nodded toward the patriarch. 
    "It is how we were raised. Nets are for cowards. We kill these fish because the alternative is starving, but we do it with honor. We trick the fish, one at a time. We build a relationship. Nets destroy everything they touch. They catch everything. The fish you want, plus plenty of fish and other things you don't want. How can a man kill one hundred fish to eat three and say he has honor?"
    Jorge understood, but sometimes it was hard to be hungry and honorable. 
    "What do you do with the fish that are injured and killed by the net. Yes, a hook can hurt a fish, but you can carefully remove it, and the fish will live. Battered around in a net. Wiped clean of their protective coating...do you throw them back and pretend they will live? Do you feed them to dogs? Do you let the birds eat them?"
    The old man was nodding his head, and Jorge's father had a queer expression on his face. It was like they were waiting for his approval. Jorge could feel how important the moment was. The men he loved and respected above all others were staring at him expectantly. 
    He could see where they were coming from. He was not a stupid boy. He knew that there were hard and easy ways to make money. To get food. Stealing was the easiest, but there was shame in it. Maybe fishing with a net was stealing from the water? Stealing from God! You were not supposed to take more than you needed. You were supposed to avoid wasting life. 
    But hunger meant death. It meant unhappiness at the least.
    It was hard to watch his friends sneak fruit from the fruteria. Of course he would have liked to join them. He never did. He knew that he would feel nothing but guilt and shame. He knew that the fruit would always taste bitter. 
    It was the same with the fish. He was used to the sweet, white meat they ate in tortillas and sopas. Killing fish with carelessness, destroying their homes...he knew this would always result in meat that would turn his stomach. It was better to be a little hungry, tired, and still be able to look at the Padre in the eyes come Easter. 
    He smiled at the old men and nodded.
    "I understand. God loves a fisherman, not a net. Fisherman are...preciso. A net is stealing from God and abusing his creation."
    The old men looked at him with a little shock. Jorge was good with words. He knew how to make other people understand what he was feeling. It was a gift. his abuelito said so.
    It pleased the men that he understood them, and it pleased Jorge that he could make the older men happy. They had gone fishing after, and the afternoon had passed quickly. The fishing was good, and so was life, thought Jorge. Life can be dangerous, but it is manageable as long as you stay out of nets.

Friday, August 8, 2025

2 Minutes. Go!

They're coming. I can hear them in the walls. They whisper through the electrical wires. They're smart; they don't keep a consistent schedule. They wait until I am alone. They wait until the small hours when my mind is free to wander. 

The first time I heard them was when I was small. I was thrilled. I told my mother, and she screamed at me. She said I was bad. She said that there was something wrong inside of me. She did not share my enthusiasm. I spent weeks talking to doctors before I wised up.

I never mentioned the voices again. 

What they don't understand is the STRENGTH. The voices make me powerful because I have an understanding that eludes you. That eludes my mother. The doctors. Why should I care about daily stresses when I know that there is a plan?

I am a cog. That is all. The strength is in the whole machine.

It's been years now. Decades. So many nights spent listening. Learning. Planning. When the end comes, people will be surprised, but the voices will laugh in harmony. I may or may not be there to enjoy it in the flesh. 

I might just join the multitude of voices.

Friday, July 25, 2025

2 Minutes. Go!

When there is no moon, and the clouds shield the stars, it becomes all about feel. Your finger on the line, the wind against the left side of your face. The mist and the water that is kicked up by the churning of the reel. There is a taste of salt and everything has the essence of fish oil. There is no light unless you light a cigarette, and then you become a glowing beacon for five minutes. 

It is cold. 

You think you know what cold feels like, but you have never felt cold like this. It hurts. It aches. It is a burden. It doesn't even feel "cold" - it feels like your skin is burning. You cover yourself and you try to keep moving, but the cold seeps into your bones. 

It slows you.

When you feel a fish on the line, it is a momentary excitement soon replaced by a sense of obligation. This is not going to be three minutes of bass fight and then a quick release. This will be hours of labor followed by autopsy and butchery. 

When your ten hours are up, you will drink cups of hot, black coffee and instantly go to sleep. You will sleep like the dead. Like the carcasses of all the fish you bested. You will wake feeling like rusted metal, but more coffee will oil your gears. The forced labor will loosen your joints.

Only three more months of this, you think. 

Three months. 

It's what you signed up for. 

Friday, July 18, 2025

2 Minutes. Go!

They dress like a cowboy fucked a soldier, and the black masks serve two purposes. One, they are scary. Masks have always been scary. Two, it allows them to move in the dark. Imagine breaking up a family...it would probably be easier with a mask on. 

They say they are precise, but they are casting a wide net. They are bottom trawlers. They sweep up everything and sort it out later. 

They will be found out by their grandchildren. Much in the same way that some poor folks found their grandma's Nazi memorabilia, their grandchildren will find something. The mask. An ICE vest. A hat. Something. 

And they will be filled with shame. 

Democracy was a fever dream, I guess. It was bound to burn out. The statue of liberty will rust away to nothing. No one will travel, even if they do have their "papers."

When true evil takes a human form, all we can do is push back. Hope. Pray that the country will come to its senses. 

When it does, if it does, we're going to have some explaining to do.